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darn shallow sucky entry.
2001-07-19 6:34 a.m.

when i was 11 all i wanted was to play the computer, be alot more tall, and watch tv.

when i was 13 all i wanted was to hang out with my friends, play the computer, be a bit more tall, and watch tv.

when i was 15 all i wanted to go to fun places with my friends, to be more self-confident, to be older.

when i was 17 all i wanted was to have some romantic experience, to be able to talk to girls, to stop being self-destructive about my life, to be happy about who i am.

now im almost 18. i have some romantic experience. me and my friends do go out with girls to places. i can watch tv and play the computer as much as i want. i am not short anymore. im older. i have friends. i like who i am in general. im getting out of the self-destructiveness, step by step.

yet i want more. i hang out with my friends, and i want more. what do i want? is it a girlfriend? seemingly maybe. but maybe i just want for the sake of wanting. cause that's the human nature. yearning.

maybe im just blabbing on cause its 7 am and i should go to sleep. so i will.

quote of the day " you dont know what you got till it's gone. "

well yeah i do know what i have. and i thank for it i guess. but i still have the right to want other things...................

oh what a sucky entry. im not even sure if it represents my opinions. im not really sure. oh well. i'll just smile and go to sleep :)


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