im really a 4 year old. no, really!
2001-08-08 5:06 a.m.

sometimes i wonder if maybe i still have a mind of a 4 year old, and everything else is just a show.

yesterday i walked up the stairs of a building, and there was an open door, with a family getting ready to leave the house.

and a small 4-8 year old girl was standing there holding her mother's hand.

and she stared at me, like only little children stare. and i stared back. into her eyes.

and then i smiled and waved my hand joyfully, saying hello, while walking up the stairs.

and she smiled, and waved her hand joyfully, while staring into my eyes.

i think i could happily satisfy my mind by spending long long hours playing with that girl on the beach, digging up holes, or in the playground swinging and sliding. i dont really NEED anything else.

sometimes i wonder if maybe i still have a mind of a 4 year old, and everything else is just a show.