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mindless haziness so why am i feeling dumb? cause i dont REALLY have anything to complain about. cause i dont REALLY have any special thing on my mind these days, nothing REALLY exciting or stressing. i dont have any of that. the days just go by, and the more im happy the less i think. which is why i feel pretty dumb. which is good. i cant really even remeber what really happened this last month. its all a blur. stuff, friends, sleep, stuff, depression, happiness.......... all a blur. im still not that happy sometimes with how i act, i still get frustrated alot, i'm still alone...... but i managed to make all the frustrating stuff minor, i managed to be able to say to myself sometimes : "dan. not now. this is NOT the time to fight with yourself. just live". sometimes. sometimes i actually smile. when im alone especially. not always though. :) so im alone. but not really lonely. not that i would mind some relationship. or at least some sex. (Very horny). but its not like i want it so badly i want to die. im just waiting. ( i know, much much too passive... i dont care right now). ...................................... i've slept 3 hours since yesterday's entry, 3 hours in the last 2 days. yawn. eyelids closing. yawn. quote of the day " mindless haziness " la li la li la li la. |