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my testicles are aching abit it's annoying. how i let small things which don't matter affect me. and it's really stupid. what do i care if has is and i haven't? what about my whole view of life? i really don't care about the past. and about what society thinks of me. almost always ................................................. today i went to my old highschool to take some grades from last year, and after i took them i sat on the bench, the same bench which my butt sat on for a many recesses, talking to my friends. i'm not saying that that times were nice. they sucked. and i hate nostalgia. but .................................................. these days are like a long chain. cause there is no beginning and no end. i go to sleep everyday at 7:00 a.m. and sleep until early afternoon. (yeah i'm a paperboy if you forgot). so this leads to my day ending exactly when it starts for most people, and that leads to some difficulties defining which day is which. it's really mad i tell you. cool .................................................. my best friend for most of my childhood, and a very leading contender for today's best friend status, nir , has been abducted by the army today. another one bites the dust. (eventhough he is supposed to come back each day because he won't be in a life risking unit, but still i doubt i'll have him as much as i want if at all...) i'm still a bit afraid of being left alone i shouldn't be afraid i shouldn't be afraid i shouldn't be afraid ............................................... the great music-taste funny guy from the icq says about himself that he is somewhat ugly. and that he has some zits apparently. does it matter? i wish it didn't. does it have to? ................................................. and that girl. that girl..... adi...... do i want to? do i really? i'm starting to think that she is not what i need, but i'm not sure if for the right reasons. i have to make the right decisions y'know? we'll see i guess (please don't be stupid. cause when your gut tells you one thing and your mind tells you another, you have to realize that your gut isn't objective at all and is sometimes too much affected by mood swings to be counted on!) .................................................. my testicles are aching abit right now and that's all |