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i didn't intend to whine.
2002-02-12 1:38 a.m.

i have set new records of mindlessness today. (and yesterday)

really.

i played so much hearts i swear the queen of spades is the person i fear more than anything. bitch.

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when people tell me that my life is easy i feel ever so annoyed. they say " what dilema's do you have in life? all you do is sleep hang out with friends and travel around the world ".

i feel like strangling them. or letting myself lose my sanity right infront of them.

i feel like letting them know what i've been through this past (week, month, 6 month, year).

i feel like spilling it all out, telling them how horrible i felt only a few monthes ago, telling them how hard it is for me this age, to tell them how i think i like boys but i'm not sure and i'm sick of thinking about it and i'm sick of hiding it and i'm sick of it all and i'm sad with it all and i'm happy with it all and i'm ecstatic with it all and making it sound even more dramatic by saying " just yesterday i realised i probably won't have kids" and just yesterday i realised how much my life will be lonely (i dont really believe that but i'd probably want to say it anyway) bla bla bla bla and such dilema's are WAY more substantial and life changing than all your dilema's summed up.

usually i just sigh in return.

maybe what i fear most is that they might be right (they're not).

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i didn't intend to whine.


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