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5 year old fagget
2002-03-18 3:23 a.m.

i talked to my sister who's 11 years older than me about how i was as a small kid

she asked what i remembered from being a little boy

i said i remembered how i wanted to be a girl

and she said "you remember that? you did always say you wanted to be a girl cause girls are prettier......and you did always like pink and purple....." (i used to think girls were the closest thing to angels when i was 5)

and then i asked her didn't it worry mom

and she said " well it didn't worry her at all. but she DID say 'well i guess only one of my kids will get married.....' "

...............................................

so it was obvious to them that i was gay at the age of five.

on the one hand it's comforting. because it means that's what i was that's what i am that's what i will be. no questions asked. that's just the way it is. even at the age of five.

on the other hand it's terrifying. so it was all known. when i was five. just like a programmed robot. it was all known. all those years of being afraid of talking to girls and falling in love with girls and thinking i should get married with a girl when i get older. all of those things. it was already known. when i was five for christs sake. all those questions i had during the past 1-2 years. they were all known. when i was five.

and if it was all known when i was five. WHY DIDN'T SOMEONE FUCKING TELL ME BEFORE?


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