heaven
2002-08-16 2:31 a.m.

like an unexpected candy which is given to a child, given to him only because his mother loves him and for no other reason, just because she wanted to tell him " you know how much i love you don't you?". and the boy is happy and he doesn't ask questions and maybe a candy is only a candy but hey its a CANDY!!!!!

and that's how i feel being home from the army a day early, totally by chance and by some small naughty move of mine, driving home from my army base without anyone ever knowing.

and everything is good and everything is well and the army is good and home ais good and my friends are good and i am good and the reason which made me have tears in my eyes only 4 days ago is an enigma. not that i'm denying the teary eyes and the depression and the splintered heart. it happened. like it always does. but it doesn't make sense.

and right now it doesn't matter.

because i feel like heaven.