i don't want to lose the war.
2002-10-20 11:02 p.m.

i'm gonna lose the war because of celine dion it seems.

oh god please let her suffer a slow and painful death. please let her naked body be hanged on a cross after it has been brutally raped, please give me the pleasure stuff burning cigarettes into her eyes, oh god please be kind. oh god how i would love to hear her cry faintly for help, and to shut her up with the sole of my shoe.

cause really, can i be with a guy who likes celine dion? a guy who thinks she's romantic? could i really?

but i don't feel like losing more ridiculous wars and i don't feel like being a virgin anymore and i don't feel like being alone anymore.

i wish i could get what i want for once. i wish the pieces of the puzzle would just fit in, for once, even for a short while. i wish i wasn't such a stupid fucked up elitist snob who prefers being alone over someone who likes celine dion. i wish a lot of stuff. and more than anything i wish celine dion was dead.