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sour times oh god this is so hard for me this is so hard hard hard hard for me i'm having trouble coping with this all. i'm sorry but i'm having trouble coping with everything that's in my head. and it's hard hard hard hard and i'm so weak weak weak weak weak. and so much is involved and when you think of one bad thing its just so easy to think of all the others and feel pity for yourself and everything is weighing on my heart so heavily and this is so so hard and i don't want this anymore and i don't want to murmur it's not fair until i die and i don't want to finish this entry and sigh and i don't want to i don't want and i don't want to finish this entry with such a pessimistic feeling i have to cope. i will. |