happy with a tinge of bitter lemon
2005-11-23 2:52 a.m.

body in flat position in water

fingers tightened

hands clasped

using muscles, mouth goes out to breath some air

back elevates itself

legs start circular motion

head goes back down

legs push forward

exhale oxygen

body in flat posi
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today i was happy.

i was happy not because things are going as i expected them too. i was happy because they werent. because i realise how alone this whole life is and is going to be, and i was happy because i dont give a damn.

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as im looking in the mirror at myself in my new small and tight swimming shorts, i wish i was someone else for a few seconds (you know what an hour would be better) so i could enjoy the joys of mutual physical interaction with myself.
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