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sleepless nights....
2008-06-04 8:03 a.m.

and i can't sleep, and i can't sleep anymore.

So i remember my dreams instead, so it's not all bad.

So i was walking in some town in some far away country with noam, oded, and oded's girlfriend.

and we get pissed.

and then oded tells me he has been fucking around, and i feel bad, cause his girlfriend is just next to me, and she doesn't hear, but just as well might have. He is drunk and stupid.

And after we get back to our dorm room in the hostel, He tells me he is going to break up with her. and i say, that's a pity, she's so nice!

And he goes to talk to her, and after 2 minutes i see him walking down the corridor, and i think what an asshole, at least talk to her more than 2 minutes, but then again, it's obvious it's hard for him, breaking up is always hard. So i go to talk to her, cause i think it's sad she's alone there.

And she's sitting there in the dorm room, and i sit down next to her, and listen to her say how she knew things weren't perfect, but she thought they would work it out.... She says that i probably know the type of pain she's in, and tears swell up in her eyes. And i hug her, and she's short, and i'm tall, and it's strange that i hug her this manly "it's okay" hug, i usually don't do these type of things.

And i say : i actually don't know that kind of pain, i envy you, i never got past 4 dates, so never knew the pain of someone breaking up with me after a serious relationship. And i suppress tears, so hard to keep suppressing the tears all the time.

And she asks me " he probably talked to you before, told you he was going to break up with me ". and i lied, and said that he didn't, just so as not to make her feel bad. And she says " then he must not really want to break up with me! and she tries calling him ". I feel bad to get caught in my lie, but he doesn't answer, and somehow there is a feeling that it might just work out between them after all.

And i leave the room, and Noam just comes back from playing basketball, and it's obvious he's pissed at me because i disappeared when we said we were going to do something together, and i know that this will lead to a huge fight, and i know that i had no choice cause i had to console oded's girlfriend because she was so miserable, and i wake up.


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