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yahir i've discovered that not many thing are more self-disgracing than humilating yourself infront of a lesser person the dangerous combination between my utter desperation and my gutsy determination turned me into a fool and i'll run it over and over and over and over in my head until my brain will have to erase the situation from my memory in order to avoid exhaustion the disgust from my lack of dignity isn't the kind of disgust that runs throughout my body and makes me wanna throw up, it's a much more numb disgust, which isn't so accute but is there nonetheless in a sort of a quiet sickening venom. and all in all i had to do what i had to do. i'm proud of myself for having the balls to be so stupid. you live you learn. and anyway i can already feel my brain starting to delete. straight my ass! bitch |