looking madness in the eye without fear
2001-05-25 2:54 a.m.

home alone

i turn off all the lights in the house

darkness

i put my portishead cd on the stereo

i get naked

i lay on the couch naked hearing my music

i get up start dancing. thinking about my life. cant do that without going crazy.

start muttering to my self stuff.

half closing my eyes, and pulling my hair with my hands. i go to the kitchen, pick up the knife in the dark, rub it against my skin, fantasize what i could do with it. conclusion : nothing right now.

i feel insane.

and now im happy.

quote of the day " wild is the wind"