a different entry.
2001-09-16 3:36 a.m.

soooooooooooooooooooooo

another day came to and end. (socially exhausting)

llllllliiiiiiifffffffffffeeeeeeee.

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we are here only for the causes we ourselves make for ourselves. there's no absolute meaning to it all. just subjective meaning. which is by no means any lesser.

most people choose the wrong causes. i'm walking at ease & with pain towards the right one. i'll find it. no, i'm finding it.

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question : what has brought this giant tsunami of existentialism?

answer : the movie ghost dog-the way of the samurai which i just watched on video.

beautiful, beautiful. intimate. thought provoking.

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death isn't a bad thing at all.

it's like going into a dark room at night. the first reaction is to fear what's in the dark, cause the unknown by default scares us. it scares us shit.

but then u turn on the lights, and you see the room as it is, which isn't scary at all. it was foolish to be scared.

it's foolish to be scared of death. probably. (or maybe statistics doesn't apply in this case?)

death isn't a bad thing.

i believe that with my brain. i just hope i can believe that with my heart before i die.

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it seems silly to talk about anything else now.

g'night.