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other people my mind has decided to close itself i was full of love. now wherever i look i shoot arrows of critism like i used to i felt the world around me. now i feel the factory inside my brain. i felt god. i KNEW god. now i don't. i forgot cynicism. now i remembered. i loved india. now? well i need some i didn't feel the need to write here. ( as always my dear diary you are just functional how sad for you ) . i was really really happy for a while. and now - well, things aren't bad, but can't really say they're really good. i realise that this is the cycle of myself, everyone has is own pace, and that's how i work evidently, no escaping it, no good lasts just as no bad lasts. i realise that, and i don't fight it, i don't accept it, but i don't fight reality. i will do my best to go back to where i was before, and i will take the bad with as much acceptance as i can. so nepal, here i come. india ? don't worry i still love you, just need to see other people for a while. that the burning body goes straight into the sky with the love of mother ganga right beside it but all i saw was men weeping their heart out. |